A look at the problem.

“Its okay, she doesn't mind. I may have one or two to relax but that's it.”

SHE knows what it feels like. She doesn't really want to go with him, but she doesn't want to go without him either. Avoiding the issue seems to be the best course to take; as a result, she doesn't go out at all. No one has been honest about what the problem is. If it is not discussed, she thinks it will go away. But the pain of the rejection does not go away--it hurts. It hurts like hell and she is angry. Furthermore, somewhere mixed in with all those feelings is the nagging thought that somehow she is responsible. Maybe she is all those terrible things he says to her. Maybe if she is a better person he would stop drinking. At the very least maybe there is something that she haven't thought of that will make him stop.

She knew he wasn't alcoholic because she loved him and he was her husband and the father of her child and SHE DIDN'T WANT HIM TO BE!” But you know what? He is. He was and is and always will be. He has a disease called Alcoholism, which is incurable. It can be arrested, but he will be an alcoholic all his life. It is a fact of his life--and HERS.


The amount of liquor in the "one or two" is, of course, not discussed. Winning the argument is not the same as winning the battle.

Anew.

My way of starting anew would be creating this, wherein I feel more free to write about the past and present happenings in my life. This way, I will know my self-better and look at things the way I never did. To start anew, I will say a prayer so to guide me in all the thoughts that I shall be putting here.

So compassionate, so faithful, so loving You are Our Father.
I ask You to increase my faith and my love for You that I may use blogging as an instrument to fulfill Your purposes. May I become a blogger of truth and promoters of peace.
Help me to be steadfast in my Christian commitment that visitors may find in my blogs a source of encouragement and inspiration. Give me strength to proclaim Your word, that I may play my part in breaking down the walls of hostility in the world and use my blogs to strengthen the bonds of friendship, solidarity and love.

Make my heart meek and humble that I may treat my readers as friends, not as unique hits, that I may strive to change myself for the better more often than I pimp my site templates, that I may find more time to ease the pain of someone in my own home than to reply to comments left by strangers, that I may interact with my next door neighbors as often as I chat with my blogrolled friends, that I may be more concerned about helping the less privileged than about the number of subscribers to my RSS feeds.

Deliver all bloggers, Father, from spams and viruses, from pride and selfishness, and from the temptation to replicate images without permission and copy ideas without crediting the original authors.

May we always be united as a network of bloggers and friends working together in Your name.

May our blogs lead us closer to You.

I ask all these through Christ, Our Lord. Amen.